So I was messing with the perpetual bird's nest that is my hair the other day when I saw something that caused me some alarm - a lone white hair, about four inches long and standing defiantly straight up in the air.
Which in my vanity made my stomach do a somersault because not only did this mean I may start popping out white hairs willy nilly now, but they are going to be crazy Albert Einstein white hairs, not shimmery smooth silver fox-type locks. So that white sucker was immediately exorcised from my head and for the following few days, I vigilantly had been combing through my hair looking for other wiry-white vagrants.
Suffice it to say, I'm in dire fear of getting older. I am pretty sure my chances of aging gracefully are next to nil, as I'm convinced wrinkles and age spots will decide to join forces with my current freckles and my already-coarse dark hair is going to be overgrown by wiry crazy white locks.
I know it is vain of me to be worried about how I look when it comes to getting older - I know I should accept the inevitable and do what I can to maintain a strong functioning body over defeating crow's feet. It's not like I depend on my looks to make a living or think I'm some great beauty by any means. But a girl can't help what she feels sometimes and one of my big fears of getting older is looking old.
However, I don't want you thinking that I'm sitting here like the Evil Queen dreaming up ways to suck out the youthfulness from young virgins so I can maintain my looks. There are actually many things I enjoy about getting older - like knowing more things. Having life experiences. Always learning, observing. Being more accepting of who I am, vainglorious or not. And eventually, knowing I am cool and quirky regardless of what others think and how many white hairs may be on my head or wrinkles around my eyes.
What do you fear about getting older? What are you actually looking forward to about it? And what have you experienced so far with your increasing years that you actually found you don't mind?