25 May 2012

Fear & Loathing in Paisley Neon

Do you remember the key visual from that movie The Ring which was that ring of light from around the cover of the well that Samara sees after she was pushed in? Well after first watching that movie at home with some friends a few years ago, I still remember waking up suddenly in the middle of the night and staring with horror of the outline of my closed bedroom door with a glowing rectangle of light behind it because I had left the kitchen light on. For a moment, I was living in The Rectangle.  

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I bring this up only as an example of latent fears of mine that stay with me to this day - scary things from my imaginings that froze me to the bone for years and years, and that still somehow affect me to this day.

I am afraid of the dark. Though I don't recall being so when I was little. I don't think I ever had to run to my parents' room in fear, nor did I lay up at night crying myself to sleep. But I read a lot when I was a kid, was "gifted" with a wild imagination, and as I got older, had a penchant for watching scary movies. And you mix it all together and you get a Lisa that is scared of the dark. One that to this day may run from the bathroom back into bed if I have to go in the middle of the night, and who finds it comforting when I travel to have the TV on as distracting background noise (and sweet dim light).

Bugs. Have been and always will be afraid of bugs. Except for honey and bumble bees. They're OK as long as they leave me alone.

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Disappointment and ridicule. Growing up, I had experience at both ends of the bully line and my guilt of having bullied others and the shame/resentment of having been bullied still resonates a bit. I hate the idea of disappointing others, of not living up to expectations (I can be a complete people pleaser sometimes). I am scared of things that I could fail spectacularly at in front of a lot of other people, like public speaking.

Getting old. Age doesn't bother me as much as the thought of growing older - looking older. I'm certainly no super model, my worth and livelihood are not determined by how wrinkle-free my skin is, but the fact that as I get older, my own body will increase its limitations, decrease output and may one day fail on me - my own body - scares the heck out of me.

So let's lay it all out on the table so we can commiserate, laugh about, and get on with enjoying our weekends. What are your fears, big or small?

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Top: J.Crew neon perfect gingham (worn here - sim, sim, sim)
Skirt: J.Crew no.2 pencil in sovereign paisley (worn here - same in shirt, sim)
Shoes: Kenneth Cole Reaction pine-a-colada (worn here - sim, low)
Clutch: UO woven flap (worn here - sim, sim, pricey)
Bracelet: J.Crew crystal abacus ( worn here - sim, sim)
Ring: c/o JewelMint (worn here - sim, sim)

To my ladies in the States, have a great holiday weekend, and send some well wishes to the men and women of the armed forces for their sacrifices.

58 comments:

  1. Oh girl - you always make us reveal too much. I guess I really do fear not living up to my potential and disappointing my family.

    xoxo
    ~Natasha Fatah~
    ~Natasha Fatah~

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    1. I think about that too - argh! But you - seems like you have a loving and supportive relationship with your fam, you couldn't disappoint them! ;o)

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  2. I adore this outfit and will be doing my version some time soon.

    My number one fear is getting older - corrected - looking older. Every year brings more wrinkles and more white hairs - ugh!

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    1. I've pulled out an errant white hair or two before - if they start coming more regularly, I may freak out!

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  3. awwwwww sorry but your dog stole my attention :D so cute!
    love the skirt! xo

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    1. Haha, she has a way of doing that, to me too!

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  4. I adore your outfit today! I saw that skirt all by it's lonesome the other day...but not in my size :( I am terrified of spiders. I hate them with a severe passion that I am afraid is extending onto my children (as they see me freak out when I see one and we have LOADS in our backyard) I also listen to every creak and sound at night, thinking for SURE it is an intruder...

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    1. Me too - if I am home alone, I am a bit obsessive about checking doors, etc. before going to bed!

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  5. I LOVE the neon gingham paired with this skirt! Makes me regret not buying that top last time I saw it at the clearance center because it really is perfect with the Sovereign Paisley.

    I really don't have many fears, but I am deathly afraid of camel crickets. You may be thinking, "really? crickets?" But they are NOT REGULAR CRICKETS. They are like a cross between a spider and a giant cricket and they JUMP. Do a Google image search and you will see why they terrify me.

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    1. GIRL! Why did I Google that?! OMG, the thought of them creeps me out now, ahhhhh!!!!!

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  6. great post and great outfit!! I have always disliked driving over bridges. As a little girl I used to lay on the floor of the car when my parents would cross the bridge (grew up on Cape Cod). As a newly licensed teen, I had to drive over the bridge and it was scary but OK. Now, as a Mom with KIDS in the car, OMG...terror!! The thought of getting into an accident and going off the bridge...and not being able to get the kids to safety...or worse, getting one and not the other two...UGH...ok..now I'm freaked out about our Memorial Day drive that will take us over the Tappen Zee...lol

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    1. Don't watch The Vampire Diaries TV show, then! Those characters are all the time driving over the one little bridge in that town and having to get rescued from their cars.

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  7. ok, well now i am just having "daymares" about the exorcist and am worried about dying!!! what were my parents thinking allowing me to watch such scary movies at such a young age??? my poor kid is going to watch KPBS until he is 18. LOL. i HATE aging and worry about death constantly. my husband is like...stop worrying about what you can't control AS IF that makes me feel ANY better! aaaaaaand....back to the outfit....very cute! =)

    xoxo, jenn
    the stylish housewife

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    1. I have a friend who is very much with the mindset of "if something happens, it happens" and she doesn't worry about it. I wish I could think like that sometimes!

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  8. totally adore your outfit. Makes me want to get a paisley RIGHT NOW with the sale on at J. Crew.

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    1. Enabling here but ... get this skirt! ;o) One of the parts I adore about this skirt is that the material is slightly textured, so it doesn't wrinkle as bad as JC's other cotton pencil skirts.

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  9. Spiders and other ugly bugs, everything else I can somehow deal with.

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  10. I love, love this outfit on you - so polished and pretty! I have loads of fears - mostly irrational, my biggest fears though are for my children - I want them to be healthy and safe always - motherhood can be terrifying I tell ya!

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    1. Being a puppy mom gives me enough fears already, I can't imagine what having kids would feel like!

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  11. hi, there! love this color.... most people would stay away from it, but you are truly rocking it. very elegant look.

    i think asian-inspired horror flicks are one of the scariest. sometimes when i'm home alone at night and hubs is on business, i get super scared thinking about those scenes. :)

    have a great wknd!

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    1. I have to keep myself from buying more of those highlighter yellow color - it doesn't photograph well, but it really is Bright!

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  12. somehow, the checks and paisley just WORKS. very cute!

    I am afraid of childbirth. I am afraid of something happening to my family (especially my husband and little Bella). I am afraid of being kidnapped when I'm home alone... even though I'm a grown adult. I'm afraid of being bit by a spider while I'm sleeping. I have strange fears!

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    1. Your fears are no stranger than anyone else's! I'm neurotic about the thought of someone breaking in - yipes!

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  13. um, ever since seeing The Ring I can't look at myself in the mirror when I have wet hair in my face. Freaks me out, like I'm that dang ring girl. Also, snowy TVs freak me out.

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    1. Ooh snowy TV - what was that other creepy movie with the undead communicating through snowy TVs?

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  14. LOVE that skirt - the paisley is just beautiful!

    sarahsavvystyle.blogspot.com

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  15. I am so glad you posted this because I too developed a fear of the dark later in life. I always slept with a soft light on until I moved in with my boyfriend who is part vamp and has to sleep in pitch black darkness. I'm slowly getting used to it but when he's working late or traveling I always leave a light on in our room and in the hall!

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    1. My BF is the same way - he seems to have no problem seeing in the dark and loves a dim room. I'm more of a get woken up by the sun streaming in kind of gal!

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  16. I too am afraid of the dark. I freak out if there's a blackout at night and need to find the nearest candle/flashlight asap. My other fear is getting stuck in an elevator, which was a problem when I lived in an elevator building! Not anymore though, thank goodness.

    Have a great weekend, Lisa!

    -Sharon
    The Tiny Heart

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  17. I'm also afraid of the dark. It stems from playing hide n' seek with my dad as kids but HE would hide in the dark and pop out and scare the crap out of us!!

    Having lost a child, I am also completely terrified of losing another to the point that I may be holding my children back by worrying about all of the "what-ifs". Ugh, I'm still working on that.

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    1. Your fears are understandable - but I bet you are the most loving and generous mother!

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  18. snakes. hands down without a doubt number 1. i have an ungodly fear of them.
    death/dying/getting old.
    flying. i'm not a fan... but i like to visit new places.

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  19. dentist. and my current dentist is a hero to me, because he accepts the phobias that are rooted in aberrant dentistry, but I still tremble.

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    1. My mom is like deathly afraid of the dentist. Like she's rather her teeth fall out then get dental work kind of fear. Like fainting away kind of fear, seriously!

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  20. fabulous skirt, top and sandals lisa! i love the print of that skirt. oh gosh, pests like roaches! they freak me out!

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    1. I recently kicked out a huge (to me) roach from the garage. I had to do it with a broom and make sure I never touched it - it gives me the heebies just thinking abot it!

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  21. I'm afraid of scary movies, and gory ones. I had a lot of childhood fears and think I'll leave them forgotten. You looking fabulous in that neon shirt so good with that skirt is making me reconsider a color I am scared of wearing.

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    1. Scary movies freak me out but I love watching them! Gory movies though ... yuck, no thanks, Mr. Krueger!

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  22. I am terrified of rats. Many years ago, we had a rat in the house. The landlord refused to do anything (beside give us an itty bitty mouse trap), insisting that we had somehow let the rat in ourselves. (We looked around the house exterior and found a torn vent screen but he didn't care much about that). Anyhow, one day we found the rat lying behind the oven, looking a bit dazed from being pinched by the mouse trap -- the rat was much too big to be actually caught in the trap. My housemate ended up disposing of the rat with a baseball bat.
    I am also scared of lizards, and of something happening to the Mr. or family members. I also have a lot of anxieties about driving.
    So yes, I am a scaredycat. :) I love this polished take on neon! One day I'll have to get a J Crew pencil skirt - I've heard nothing but good things about them.

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  23. That shirt was made for that skirt!

    Snakes, spiders, scorpions. I have to sleep with a nightlight--yes, me, who hunts ghosts in dark prisons and asylums, although I won't wander alone and I must carry a flashlight.

    I am most terrified of losing my parents. I hate living so far from them and seeing them only a couple of times each year and noticing how much they've aged since the last visit.

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  24. Love the paisley skirt :) Fears - I hate magpies! Don't know if you guys have them over there but its like a crow that can swoop and I was swooped as a kid and ever since if I see one I have to walk to the other side of the road otherwise I "fear" it will swoop me!!

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  25. I totally afraid of spiders!! And that movie "The Ring", gave me nightmares for weeks after - after that, I refused to watch any more horror movies.

    It kills me every time I see you wearing that neon gingham shirt. I debated it for ages last summer and by the time I decided I wanted it, it was sold out!

    Hope you have a great weekend!

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  26. love the neon- no fear there! So jealous of this awesome bright gingham mixed with the best pencil skirt print- I sooooo love these paisleys!

    I am terrified that if I look out the window at night there might be a face looking back in at me! (product of reading Dracula at too young an age) Unfortunately the manfriend forgot about this a couple of years ago when we arrived at my family cottage and he thought it would be funny to jump out at the big picture window in the deep blackness of country night. I started sobbing hysterically, while he stood outside with this equally horrified expression on his face! :)

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  27. I love your outfit here, so pretty! Thank you for your kind words on my post! XOXO, www.NatalyasCloset.com

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  28. I'm fearless and I love that skirt. Can't wait to get mine in the mail soon too!

    Have a great long weekend!

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  29. Love the neon and the mixing of prints is perfect!! A few of my fears: spiders, scary movies, the dark.

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  30. This is an awesome outfit...the skirt is great, and love how you went for it by pairing it with gingham...love, love, love!

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  31. You look so cute in the skirt & I like that clutch. Can't do scary movies anymore. Thanks, Chuckie!

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  32. What a gorgeous, bold color combination! I also like the different background. What a beautiful staircase! (Is that weird?)

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  33. How do you manage to make 1. awesome outfits and then 2. pair then with great thought provoking posts? You perfect style blogger, you.

    I'm really scared of the dark and any and all noises too. And... I haven't really experienced my body failing, but my parents are getting to that age and it's definitely scary.

    I also tagged you to answer 11 questions!

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  34. Love how you put this unexpected (in my head anyway:p) combo! And the yellow punch!

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  35. In the past two years I've developed a fear of flying, after having flown since I was very young quite regularly. My job requires about 40 international flights a year (I'm based in Europe) and I can't stand it. I do it, but ugh, it's a mental ordeal to keep myself calm. I, too, love the skirt! My first time leaving a comment, but I've been reading for a while. I so enjoy your posts!

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  36. beautiful color combination and beautiful outfit. you look great. i fear only of snakes before, but now as a mother my fears grown

    http://excurlythoughts.blogspot.com

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  37. Ahhh Lisa your hair looks amazing!!!

    I am soooo afraid of worms and snakes. If it's raining I try not to go out. I can't even see a picture of a snake or a snake cartoon ugh!

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  38. You look great and you are aging gracefully! Work it, girl.

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  39. Paisley in neon has to be the best creation ever. You look fabulous!

    Yes,I suffer from the afraid of the dark syndrome. I actually have a night light in our bedroom. Recently when I stayed over my in-laws I barely slept since my room was pitch black.

    Bugs that fly....can't function when I see something flying near my face.

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